Right now, i'm in the midst of my Term exams. Tomorrow i have my chinese paper. I can't be bothered much. Its such a waste of time. I feel so frustrated. Argh.
At the same time, i feel so screwed up. I realized that true friends in AC, i can count with my fingers. Who knows if that number will increase or even dwindle. Sigh.. There is so much i want to say, but i can't. If only...
I just feel like i'm wasting my life away right now.
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Monday, June 21, 2010
Terms...!
Its been about 2 months since i posted. Well, its been hectic! Time flies and before i know it, its the end of the june hols! So.. what happened? I'm now president of lifeguards, i didn't go for a second cca, and politics are taking their toll. However, through this small june vacation, i've grown really close to my Lifeguard mates. Like all other organisations, we do have our screwed up politics. sigh. However, all of them are great people, and i'm sure they'll rise to the occasion. I just wish it was simple, i mean, things aren't going to change. Nobody wants anything to be screwed up. So why can't we all move along, and try to get along?
I also just witnessed the j2's competition. That totally spurred me on to get something next year... B division Boys!!! GOGOGO!!! I have confidence we'll do well next year. =)
I wonder whats going on back in Maris Stella, i'll go back soon...
I also just witnessed the j2's competition. That totally spurred me on to get something next year... B division Boys!!! GOGOGO!!! I have confidence we'll do well next year. =)
I wonder whats going on back in Maris Stella, i'll go back soon...
Saturday, April 10, 2010
Up & Down
The things that make JC life bearable are my class, my OG and to a certain extent, my cca. Life has become hectic ever since jc started. And i'm still searching for that little bit of motivation to focus on my work. I miss my secondary school days really badly. And i feel like a Marist, out of place in ACJC most of the time. It seems fine on the surface, but really. I just don't feel in place. & yet i'm thinking of so many other things i wanna take up. Like maybe Arts council, or if i can make it, Swimming as a second cca... I wonder if i'll make the cut.
Its time i stop whining. I need to get my act in order. The teachers not here to tell me to 'really sit down and study' or threaten me with things like 'At the end of the year, dont give me the pleasure of saying i told you so'. And i kinda miss that. I was looking through my photos on facebook just now. The 'Photos of me' category has doubled ever since i came to AC. and looking at the last picture and the first picture. The difference was... a really big gap. It was kinda great to see how much i have grown and matured, but i'm not displaying that. yet.
I want that motivation i had to study for Os back. sigh. I want to be able to tell myself at the end of every day, that i have done my best. and I will not regret what ever i've done for today. I will make that commitment. from tomorrow onwards! =P
Oh, I love my PW grp. I thank god for the people i have. I know its an 'A'! Work towards it guys! & have fun in the process!
After a while, i realised, i need to open myself up to the possibilities in JC. Make full use of everything. But at the same time, stay true to myself. Just as what my teacher has told me.
Its time i stop whining. I need to get my act in order. The teachers not here to tell me to 'really sit down and study' or threaten me with things like 'At the end of the year, dont give me the pleasure of saying i told you so'. And i kinda miss that. I was looking through my photos on facebook just now. The 'Photos of me' category has doubled ever since i came to AC. and looking at the last picture and the first picture. The difference was... a really big gap. It was kinda great to see how much i have grown and matured, but i'm not displaying that. yet.
I want that motivation i had to study for Os back. sigh. I want to be able to tell myself at the end of every day, that i have done my best. and I will not regret what ever i've done for today. I will make that commitment. from tomorrow onwards! =P
Oh, I love my PW grp. I thank god for the people i have. I know its an 'A'! Work towards it guys! & have fun in the process!
After a while, i realised, i need to open myself up to the possibilities in JC. Make full use of everything. But at the same time, stay true to myself. Just as what my teacher has told me.
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
I'm dying.
Hey guys... havent had an update in forever. Don't know what made me continue. Anyways, JC has started, and i'm in ACJC. (FYI : Ben wong did transfer out) So, in the end, I ended up in Lifeguards CCA. Its a pretty self explanatory cca. We're not a sport. We're a club.
The worst part, the work. I do not get anything in h2 math. I can't absorb h2 geog. I'm too slow in reading h2 Lit. (Hamlet is great, WSS SUCKS). I have no confidence in h2 econs. and as usual, i suck at chinese. REALLY BADLY. I mean, if i thought sec 4 O lvl chinese would be the worst part of my life, it just got worse.
Sometimes, I don't know if i made the right choices. I mean, I seem to be doing great in AC. I'm in the best arts class, 1AH (u guys are great), I at least enjoy cca more than MITs... But i dont know if i would've done better in the jc i always wanted to go to. Its less prestigious, but it has always been my aim. Even Ms Koh (Sec 3/4 Lit Teacher), advised me on that jc rather than ac. She reckons i would'nt cope as well in AC. Maybe shes right. Well, shes right 95% of the time. And i have always taken her advice and ended up well. But now... things have taken a different route.
Of course now, she'll say : 'Suck it up and make the best out of it. It was your choice.' or 'I told you so'. =p
Ah well. Thats what i guess i have to do. Things in jc has taken drastic changes. The kind of people i meet, as compared to the kind of friends i had in secondary school. They're not in any way similar. And at how i look at it now. They will never be. Theres something about Maris Stella you can't explain. As much as we complain abt the sch, we love it. Thats what i realised. I missed the days there. Everything now just seems so harsh. Its a dog eat dog, fish eat fish, human eat human world here. Its sinister. Its harsh. Its barren. Its cruel.
Is the best really yet to be? or is this, simply the calm before the storm.
The worst part, the work. I do not get anything in h2 math. I can't absorb h2 geog. I'm too slow in reading h2 Lit. (Hamlet is great, WSS SUCKS). I have no confidence in h2 econs. and as usual, i suck at chinese. REALLY BADLY. I mean, if i thought sec 4 O lvl chinese would be the worst part of my life, it just got worse.
Sometimes, I don't know if i made the right choices. I mean, I seem to be doing great in AC. I'm in the best arts class, 1AH (u guys are great), I at least enjoy cca more than MITs... But i dont know if i would've done better in the jc i always wanted to go to. Its less prestigious, but it has always been my aim. Even Ms Koh (Sec 3/4 Lit Teacher), advised me on that jc rather than ac. She reckons i would'nt cope as well in AC. Maybe shes right. Well, shes right 95% of the time. And i have always taken her advice and ended up well. But now... things have taken a different route.
Of course now, she'll say : 'Suck it up and make the best out of it. It was your choice.' or 'I told you so'. =p
Ah well. Thats what i guess i have to do. Things in jc has taken drastic changes. The kind of people i meet, as compared to the kind of friends i had in secondary school. They're not in any way similar. And at how i look at it now. They will never be. Theres something about Maris Stella you can't explain. As much as we complain abt the sch, we love it. Thats what i realised. I missed the days there. Everything now just seems so harsh. Its a dog eat dog, fish eat fish, human eat human world here. Its sinister. Its harsh. Its barren. Its cruel.
Is the best really yet to be? or is this, simply the calm before the storm.
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
ACJC, a new beginning
Looks like its the end of the holidays. Time to get back to waking up early, going to school, and working my ass off.
to be honest, i'm really anxious and nervous about the whole orientation thing tomorrow. I don't know what kind of people i'll meet, or what kind of friends i'll make. But whatever the case, i hope they'll be good ones. I found out Benjamin Wong is in my group too, and I'm overjoyed. Now i know i won't be feeling as awkward! Only that he is appealing out of ACJC. I wonder if he'll make it. i know its bad, but i hope he'll stay with me =x. jkjk
ahhhhh.. i'm so nervous!! >.<
well, i hope things go okay... i'll try to keep things updated!
to be honest, i'm really anxious and nervous about the whole orientation thing tomorrow. I don't know what kind of people i'll meet, or what kind of friends i'll make. But whatever the case, i hope they'll be good ones. I found out Benjamin Wong is in my group too, and I'm overjoyed. Now i know i won't be feeling as awkward! Only that he is appealing out of ACJC. I wonder if he'll make it. i know its bad, but i hope he'll stay with me =x. jkjk
ahhhhh.. i'm so nervous!! >.<
well, i hope things go okay... i'll try to keep things updated!
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Tell me its not true
I got great results for my O lvls. I got 7 points. It was wayyy beyond my expectations.....
but now, with the kind of choices i have with my results, it gave rise to confusion as to where to go... and to make it worse, i've been hearing stories about you. he said you weren't sincere. you talked behind my back. and i was ready to go to the same jc as you.
please tell me its not true. I dont know what to listen to anymore. what to do. I want to cry.
but now, with the kind of choices i have with my results, it gave rise to confusion as to where to go... and to make it worse, i've been hearing stories about you. he said you weren't sincere. you talked behind my back. and i was ready to go to the same jc as you.
please tell me its not true. I dont know what to listen to anymore. what to do. I want to cry.
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Holidays?
Its roughly a month into the holidays, time to evaluate how I've been spending it!
Okay, so these are some of the things i've done...
4L Class BBQ
Taking up swimming
Starting to gym
2C outings
Serious WoW raiding (finally)
Mmmm.
Well, to start it off, 4L bbq was a blast. (pictures on facebook) But, its a bit late to talk about it now. =p but everyone enjoyed themselves, and there was a little too much food =x
but i'm pretty proud of myself for organising it, nevertheless. =D
Swimming & Gymming.
Well, swimming have been pretty much solitary, considering its all lessons. I'm taking my silver soon and moving up (hopefully). Its something i want for myself. I've always enjoyed being in the water anyways.
As for gymming, I've just been doing it with friends, seldom alone. Its quite 'productive' in a way i guess. But i have yet to see any results... Hope by the end of the holidays... hehe. hahaha. =x yup.
2C Outings
More or less the same. Movie, Lan. Sigh. I need to organise something new quick. But everyone is going away! Jloh to japan, Jia wei to taiwan. and hong chuan MIA 24/7! Not to mention lynus going UK in January. =/
i'll do something about it.. and quick, i hope.
Ah well!
Thats the holidays so far. Productive or not? i don't really know. But i guess i'm pretty satisfied with myself. For those who are asking if i'm working, its a NO. Don't ask why. =) Yup!! so.. we'll see what comes ahead. I'm going Malaysia tomorrow! Shopping time! lol. till the next time.. cyas!
I'll always be waiting for you.
Okay, so these are some of the things i've done...
4L Class BBQ
Taking up swimming
Starting to gym
2C outings
Serious WoW raiding (finally)
Mmmm.
Well, to start it off, 4L bbq was a blast. (pictures on facebook) But, its a bit late to talk about it now. =p but everyone enjoyed themselves, and there was a little too much food =x
but i'm pretty proud of myself for organising it, nevertheless. =D
Swimming & Gymming.
Well, swimming have been pretty much solitary, considering its all lessons. I'm taking my silver soon and moving up (hopefully). Its something i want for myself. I've always enjoyed being in the water anyways.
As for gymming, I've just been doing it with friends, seldom alone. Its quite 'productive' in a way i guess. But i have yet to see any results... Hope by the end of the holidays... hehe. hahaha. =x yup.
2C Outings
More or less the same. Movie, Lan. Sigh. I need to organise something new quick. But everyone is going away! Jloh to japan, Jia wei to taiwan. and hong chuan MIA 24/7! Not to mention lynus going UK in January. =/
i'll do something about it.. and quick, i hope.
Ah well!
Thats the holidays so far. Productive or not? i don't really know. But i guess i'm pretty satisfied with myself. For those who are asking if i'm working, its a NO. Don't ask why. =) Yup!! so.. we'll see what comes ahead. I'm going Malaysia tomorrow! Shopping time! lol. till the next time.. cyas!
I'll always be waiting for you.
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